Finished with FAT!

So, in order to hold myself accountable for my personal weight loss battle, I decided to start a blog. I don't really care if anyone reads it, but just knowing it's out there in cyberspace MAY give me an extra little push that I may (will) need to get my ass in gear. The title of my blog is pretty self-explanatory: The less of me physically, the more I can be myself and the more confidence I show. This is what I miss most about being the lesser version of myself. Nothing feels better, for me, after struggling with this my whole life, than being able to look in the mirror and like what I see. Right now, I don't. I'm gonna get it back. Some way, somehow.

As for a little bit of a background, I have always struggles with my weight. I was overweight as a teenager, I have lost too much too fast, gained it all back, worked hard to get it off again in a healthy, balanced way, and slowly let the weight creep up on me again. The main problem being my love for food and lack of self-control. Just when I was starting to lose some weight again, I found out I was pregnant..and so there goes that. I have since lost the weight that I gained during my pregnancy save for a couple of pounds, but I want to get back to my comfortable weight and I have a long way to go. It's going to be a 30 pound journey. If only it could be a 30 day journey! 

Today I went to my first work-out as a Curves member. I hope this can help kick-start my metabolism, help me gain some muscle, which will of course help me burn more fat. I plan to weigh myself weekly and take my measurements at least once a month. I will be updating here, if not for anyone else, then for myself.

Getting back to the issue of food. I seem to not know how much is too much and how much is too little. I'm either over-eating, or not eating enough, and I can't find the happy medium. I know it's not good to eat too little, but somewhere inside my brain something nags at me, trying to make me believe that barely eating is the best way to lose weight. I have to learn this the hard way, because twice this way has not helped me in keeping the weight off.

Anyways, that's about all I want to say for now.
I will give my first weight on Friday since that is my "weigh-day"..Actually maybe I will just report my losses and/or gains..Not really sure if I want to throw my weight out there. 


I feel weird signing....
HollyMel 


Mood: unmotivated :(