Wanna Know What Gets On My Nerves????

It really gets on my nerves when people try to tell me I'm wrong when I KNOW I'm right.

It gets on my nerves even more when I go to the gym and see some skinny chick there starting at MY fat ass the whole time. Well, I'm sorry that you're good at going to the gym and you don't need to be here, and I do. You'd be staring at my FAT ass sitting at McDonald's too telling me with you dirty looks that I shouldn't be eating a 500 calorie burger or a super sized fries. You would think YOU would be happy to see MY fat ass at the gym, but oh no...Just go on trying to make me feel more stupid than I already do. So, I pose this question, what do you want from me, skinny bitch??? You don't want me to eat. You don't want me to work-out. I hope you get so fat one day you can't FIT inside a McDonald's franchise, but don't worry, when that day comes, I'll deliver your Happy Meal free of charge.... on my bike. Just like a skinny bitch would. 

Know what else gets on my nerves? Strech marks and slaggy skin! No matter how many calories I burn that will never go away. I guess I COULD go back to Cuba where self-image and consciousness are non-existent. EXCEPT, I would have to starve for a week...herein lies the problem. SEE? I'd rather go to New York or Vegas...and bask in a land of fnacy restaurants with fancier drink menus and all the breadsticks and salad that Heaven could offer. Oh, and when I say salad, I don't mean the ones that are good for you. I mean the "heart-attack-on-your-plate" type. Otherwise known as, a GOOD salad. 


What gets on my nerves above it all are ignorant customer service representatives. What a misinforming job title. Customer service representative? Do they really represent us as customers? I think not. Probably treat us at about par with the skinny chick from the gym. Like, take for instance this HYPOTHETICAL situation, with all the sarcasm one individual could summon for a single statement: "I'm sorry ma'am, but you know I can't fix your phone over the phone line". Well, excuse me, one who ought to be representing me, but I don't think it's in your job description to make me feel stupid, because I'm far from it. Now, do something worthwhile with MY time and please transfer me to your manager. You know that show Undercover Boss? Yeah, well, I suggest you watch the way you treat your clients there, bad boy.  Just because your girlfriend has you in the dog house doesn't mean I get to be punished for it. You live in India and I'm in Canada. Go pick on someone in your own country, at least! Or, get another job. 


I want more money.

Is this a weight loss blog? Possibly not. 


Goodnight. 


Feeling: Bitter

 

Day 2...Too Lazy For Something More Clever...

Just got back from Curves. Feeling pretty good about it. Hopefully, it will work for me. I am going to try to make it 5 times a week unless something comes up, and I can't. The only thing I know is that it makes me sweat, and that's a good thing!! I'm going with a friend, too...so hopefully we can keep each other motivated.

I've been trying hard to watch what I eat and only eat necessary portions instead of what I want...It's not easy. It's also VERY hard not to snack at night while watching TV! And no, I'm not going to stop watching my shows..haha..

Especially Glee. I'm more talented than all of you. I see that clearly now. I heart Brittany. 

Two more days until "weigh-day"!! I'm trying not to get my hopes up TOO much, but I'm starting to feel more confident. I would like to have 15 pounds lost by Christmas. That's about 5 pounds a month. I think that's a reasonable goal. 

If the weather was nicer (raining ALL the time) I would go out for more walks with the baby, but it doesn't look like that's going to change any time soon.

It's so humid! Gross. 

Anyways, 
that's all for tonight...
MUST. DRINK. WATER!!!! (and watch SURVIVOR)

HollyMel 

Feeling: THIRSTY 

Finished with FAT!

So, in order to hold myself accountable for my personal weight loss battle, I decided to start a blog. I don't really care if anyone reads it, but just knowing it's out there in cyberspace MAY give me an extra little push that I may (will) need to get my ass in gear. The title of my blog is pretty self-explanatory: The less of me physically, the more I can be myself and the more confidence I show. This is what I miss most about being the lesser version of myself. Nothing feels better, for me, after struggling with this my whole life, than being able to look in the mirror and like what I see. Right now, I don't. I'm gonna get it back. Some way, somehow.

As for a little bit of a background, I have always struggles with my weight. I was overweight as a teenager, I have lost too much too fast, gained it all back, worked hard to get it off again in a healthy, balanced way, and slowly let the weight creep up on me again. The main problem being my love for food and lack of self-control. Just when I was starting to lose some weight again, I found out I was pregnant..and so there goes that. I have since lost the weight that I gained during my pregnancy save for a couple of pounds, but I want to get back to my comfortable weight and I have a long way to go. It's going to be a 30 pound journey. If only it could be a 30 day journey! 

Today I went to my first work-out as a Curves member. I hope this can help kick-start my metabolism, help me gain some muscle, which will of course help me burn more fat. I plan to weigh myself weekly and take my measurements at least once a month. I will be updating here, if not for anyone else, then for myself.

Getting back to the issue of food. I seem to not know how much is too much and how much is too little. I'm either over-eating, or not eating enough, and I can't find the happy medium. I know it's not good to eat too little, but somewhere inside my brain something nags at me, trying to make me believe that barely eating is the best way to lose weight. I have to learn this the hard way, because twice this way has not helped me in keeping the weight off.

Anyways, that's about all I want to say for now.
I will give my first weight on Friday since that is my "weigh-day"..Actually maybe I will just report my losses and/or gains..Not really sure if I want to throw my weight out there. 


I feel weird signing....
HollyMel 


Mood: unmotivated :(